Confused
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Last9 seriously SAD!
you really makes me so hard to do
trying to ignore ur question but u force me to answer
After I answer u honestly, u said I spoilt ur mood!
WHATTHEFUCKISTHIS
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Tell me what should I do and say?!
Can u stand at my side and think how hard is me
This can't That can't
Please la weii~
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I sent u 2 msgs last9 before I off to bed
I expect u'll reply me but ended up DISAPPOINTED again ):
Nevermind..Mayb ure not feeling well
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SEE! Everytime what u done I'll just "nevermind"
Do u noticed that?!
Use ur brain and heart to feel it!!
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I hate to tell u obviously
coz things may turn out not that good if i do so..
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This morning u texted me
I wake everytime when I heard my phone beep
but, today I just looking at ur msg
Im asking myself should I reply or not
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coz u just seems to forget everything and make a new day to u
is that so easy u can forget?!
I don't think so unless..............
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Just a few mins ago, u texted me again coz I didn't reply ur prev one
Fingers wanna reply but I force not to coz my heart telling me not
I wonder what will happened If I don't text u for a day
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I know NOTHING will happen and u WON'T realise anything
I dont wanna hope so much anymore
the more I think of
the more my tear drops
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People said
眼泪只为高兴的事而流
but there's no happy things for me to do so
sadness is getting more and more!
haihs
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*BIG SIGH*
imnotasstrongasbefore
Labels: for you, pain, sad, will always remembered
♥ Our lips must always be sealed...
1:44 PM
I hate the taste of a LEMON!
After the day I back from KL
at least I feel a lil' changed of you
(= thank you so much!
The memories of 212609 i definitely won't forget it!
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Today out of sudden,
u changed back to the normal u or mayb not
I don't know which is the real u now
I wish to know but impossible I guess ):
*sigh*
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Seriously the taste of a lemon is so suck
I taste too much since u're here
but, u can sense wrongly and said u really understand me
woah! I m not a very easy person for u to understand, do u know that?!
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THISISSOCALLEDYOUDONTUNDERSTAND!!
Can't blame again
*inhale...exhale...inhale...exhale*
Alright Nic, u ll be good tomorrow! (=
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sigh again
I prefer u hate me than anything seriously
How much I've tears for u? I dont dare to count
Each time I wish u're there u won't be there
am I right?!
Nevermind..Nevermind..
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Forgive so much but u didn't know or maybe ure pretending
hmm...whatever
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How tough is it, Life still goes on
I got no choice!
I hope u really can understand me very well
before I proceed to others
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I m thinking should I reply ur msg tomorrow?
OR
ignore the whole day?
my heart saying no )=
but, If I do, I dont think u can sense ur wrong
but, youre not feeling well right now!
How?! HOW?! how?!
*sigh*
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Give me a way what I should do next
Speechless..Hopeless..
heartagainbreakintopieces
Labels: for you, pain, sad, will always remembered
♥ Our lips must always be sealed...
12:32 AM
So much fun on my weekends..
Monday, September 28, 2009
Hi, I'm back again to post something up here to share
yea, is pretty fun and happy for last weekend!
Let's talked about last saturday
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Accompanied mom for her chiropractic
done that and we straight headed to MIDVALLEY
not to waste our time
we separated w/ dad to shop
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walked the whole midvalley w/ mom
as mom promised me, she wanna get me a Guess bag which she said is very nice
Alright then, I m sure happy for it!
walked in the Guess Boutique
I was shocked seeing the bag, is so aunty k!
I like another one which is in white color
but, I don't think to get that ):
I preferred the white purse medium size
There's no medium size in MidValley
so, decided to go Gardens and have a look on the purse then
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pass by Coach
I saw a slingbag!!
OHMYGOD...I love it, Mom!
and, she brings me in
No one wanna serve us as we wear so bloody simple
ok fine
blahblahblah
mom decided to get me the sling bad instead of the guess :)
WOW..
'm an Angel now
Angel w/o wings to fly
lols
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so, not thinking about the guess bag anymore
Thanks MOM!
then, back to MidValley
went in Metro to see do they sell the white purse
yes, they have!
but, only left one ):
sad..
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I don't get to buy
sobzsobz
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Anyway, I get 2 pairs of sandal
1 from Vincci and 1 from Charles & Keith
and, 1 Coach slingbag!
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THANKS A LOT MUMMY =D
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back aunt's house and quickly get prepared myself
as I got a date w/ someone
which m not gonna mention who!
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waited for an hour i guess
and, i started to feel sleepy and my mood is turned like not going out anymore ):
Suddenly, you called and said which road should I turned in
explain and blah
and, there you reached!
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Out to 1U
accompanied you for dinner
and, after that we went to somewhere else
not to mention too (:
PRIVACY!
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and, yea, around 12+am to 1
you sent me back to aunt's house
and, now I m start to miss you badly ):
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anyway, I know I ll be seeing u soon
just wait!
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The next morning(Sun)
I've to attend class and right after the class
Drove back to Sgt and prepared to out for helping
Imagine that is sooooo bloody tired!
okie.
Thats all to share
hehehe
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Bye~
Labels: for you, Happy-Go-Lucky, will always remembered
♥ Our lips must always be sealed...
2:46 PM
No matter how, I'll still happy..
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Monday,210909:
Hihello (:
as usual monday is always my working day!
Don't make a mistake, Im helpin my bro at night market
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You know I need to help on Mon and u still asking me
whether I wanna join to ap a not.
=.="
again spoilt my mood coz I can't go ):
TAO YAN DAO SI!
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What my sis-in-law and I expected is not happened at all
Seriously disappointed one
So, back early w/ dad sharp at 8o
*hooray*
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I promised I'll out w/ kache and u
Kache seriously very very disappointed on u
Promise me but non u get it done nicely
nevermind~nevermind~
Hope u know my temper as I m not always the good one
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Since kache is not going out
so, u called and said u wanna bring me out
*inside happy*
Get changed and prepared
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out w/ u.
blahblahblah much
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and, somethings happened (:
not gonna share
It's not something that out of u guys mind
Don't think too far, alright?!
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Although how deep u cut my heart
but, still a day to meet cures everything
WHAT THE SHIT!
I really don't know what's happened on me now
I don't know which should I go
who am I now
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Anyway, thank u for being there
and for ur everything last9
I really appreciate it, and I hope u too (:
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Sorry coz can't take a good pic/can said never had one
Promise a better one coming soon! ^.^
Labels: for you, will always remembered
♥ Our lips must always be sealed...
12:08 AM
Never ever put a lil' hopes on you..
Monday, September 21, 2009
Tonight is not gonna be a goodie night
Kache was not able to reach here on time
so, change to tomorrow!
Hopefully no any excuses from here
She's a big ffk one =)
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Alright, nothing to talk about kache
Back to you now
Seriously disappointed AGAIN!
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I don't know why I put soo bloody much hopes on u
expect YOU WILL but YOU WON'T
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From time to time, u really changed a lot
The way u do is really different
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I really wish to make everything clear from now
I m bloody suffer from all that, Do u know that?!
why are u so selfish hm?
Do u really think about it?
OR u're purposely treat me so?
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TELLMEEVERYTHING
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Why so hard to tell me the 3 lil' words?
If u say it forever I will disappear from u life
Really!
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This happened again and again
ure nothing over there and i m suffering over here
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YOU'RE TOO SELFISH DUDE!
t
Labels: for you, pain, sad, will always remembered
♥ Our lips must always be sealed...
12:36 AM
High expectation..
Sunday, September 20, 2009
My mood to blog is back slowly =)
'm happy w/ it!
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BORED TO DEATH now
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*cut short the craps*
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Today mood was so so only
happy-sad-disappointed-happy-sad-disappointed
as u can see kept changing mood
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I wish to know why am I become like this now :(
srsly not good for health
no appetite again
sad case,right!
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Supposed to went wedding dinner at 7o
but, I rejected my parents coz I thought u'll coming back early
to....meet me up!
sharp 7o, u told me there raining heavily
aldou u indirect telling me
I still can understand it u're not coming back that early
NEVERMIND
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But, it's too late for me to prepared for dinner
so decided to stayed at home w/ kiddos
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Get a called from sis-in-law, her sis will pick up the kids at 9o
alright, that's fine
I need to be alone at home for a moment or two
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She picked, m alone
and, that's the time I feel so LONELY :(
I would never said this word as I always wanted to be alone at home
But, I feel it and said it out today
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coz I thought will be alone just for awhile
but...but..but
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urgh..I really put too high expectation on u
Bloody sad and disappointed!
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You never told me u reached here safely
and, I wonder alone here and feel like texting u at 1st
but, I control not too
Last, I did too =.="
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I know I m nothing to u now
but, at least I still care and concern about u
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haihs
Everything is too late for now
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inhale...exhale...inhale..exhale
nic, u'll be alright tomorrow =)
Labels: for you, pain, sad, will always remembered
♥ Our lips must always be sealed...
12:24 AM
For you 2...
Saturday, September 19, 2009
I m trying hard to fix back every single pieces of my heart
from the prev. one
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and, u break it again
Getting more serious. It's bleed like nobody business
and is everywhere on the floor
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How am I going to fix back myself this time?!
Confused Blank
I can't make any decision anymore
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THE PAIN IS SO F*kin DEEP,alright
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I want u to HATE me so that I can stay away from u forever
delete u from mind and heart
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But, why u don't wanna do so to me?!
and, u urself don't even know what's in ur mind and what u want
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is really HARD man,srsly
All the questions I point at u is just like shooting me back :(
argh!!
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Nic, breathe through the right nostril
Hopefully will b fine from tomorrow onwards
Should have a good sleep now
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Nights and Sweet dreams peeps :)
Labels: for you, pain, sad, will always remembered
♥ Our lips must always be sealed...
1:10 AM
For you...
Friday, September 18, 2009
I don't know what can I say.
the only way is to accept everything u do to me
No matter the worst or the best
me will still accept it w/ my heart =)
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The drastic changed of u really....*shocked face*
the tears can't stop fallin cause it's hurt.
Heart broke into million pieces everywhere on the floor
heart bleed.
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I can't feel anything anymore
the only way is just kept crying w/o ur cares
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You just shoots me and leave me there until u're alright
WHAT IS THIS?!
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I'm really sick of the word 'SORRY' from u
more than 50 times perday I received that F word from u.
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I wanna know what's in ur mind
what u want and all.
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but, the answer u don't know too!
How am I supposed to do?!
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Heart squeezing now
God, please give me a way to solve all this.
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I wanna grab both but I know I couldn't do so ):
save me from everything!
Labels: for you, pain, sad, will always remembered
♥ Our lips must always be sealed...
12:10 PM
